I normally don't write about family stuff ,but I just needed to vent and to know that maybe I'm not crazy!? Some of you may know I'm a stay at home mom. My family lives in Arkansas and the hubbies family is in the UK ,so living in Texas we don't really get time away from the little lady. When she was younger I had a friend watch her 2 times both of those times for an hour maybe two. The only time she has every spent time away from us was on our wedding night...she stayed with my mom ,and the we woke up bright and early to get her and have her first birthday. Yes you read that right we had our wedding on Saturday and Ladies 1st birthday on Sunday. Well in trying to get her some independence from me I had arranged for her to go to my friends house and play with her daughter that is the same age for a few hours so I could get some things done around the house. Well I dropped her off and she went right in to playing with her friend and as I got into my car I couldn't hold back the tears. I feel empty and selfish. I know it's the best thing for the both of us ,but I can't help but feel like I'm incomplete. I totally trust my friend 100% with her. I just feel like what if I miss something? What if something happens? I feel selfish for wanting to get things done you can't really do with a 1 year old like really clean. Does it get better? Will I alway's feel this way? Am I the only one that feel's like this? Like now I'm irrelevant? Am I just crazy? I just can't help but to miss this cute little face.
Just my opinion, but it is totally normal. I can remember having those same feelings...but then they pass...lol
ReplyDeleteI agree it's totally normal. I did the same thing the first time someone watched my oldest and even now (she's about to turn 3) I miss her like crazy whenever she's away from me and feel a little stab of sadness with each new bout of independence she gains. Hang in there mama.
ReplyDeleteSuch a lovely girl! Enjoy the time. For two years all I could think about was my daughter, When they get more independent you will get too. And now I am like crazy about my six months grandson. Seeing him is like heaven and I miss him sooo much if I do not see him for more than ten days. I know I am crazy, but it is a nice crazyness. ;-)
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